My god, that was five months ago. 3-15-12

We had a Sam! :) He is the most wonderful, beautiful, precious little screaming, crying, attention-needing bundle of baby ever! 

Our First Moments

Everything has been wonderful, and terrifying and beautiful and godawful. There are moments when I can't stop staring at him while he sleeps, and others when all I can do is think "what the hell does this baby need to stop yowling!" It is all amazing.

But we are truly blessed. He came into our lives after 30 hours of labor, the last three simply the most terrifying and intense experience of my entire life. But I got through it with the help of my husband and (believe it or not) my mother. We made it through, he came out, and our lives were changed forever.

 We still watch movies we've stolen from the internet, we still talk about how everything we like is awesome and everything we don't like sucks (of course we know everything!) But there is this little person here, little face that watches us and giggles and smiles and follows us with his eyes and god, we are the most important thing in the world to him.

killer smiles...

 It is an amazing feeling when he you know he saves that extra special smile for you, or has a happy fit when he's given to you after being in another's arms. He has these little feet, and chubby little legs, and just beautiful blue eyes. He snores a teeny bit when he sleeps and when his arms are up over his head and he's sleeping, we call him "peace baby".

early on, when he slept a lot (first month, for sure)

In the five months since Sam has been born, we have gone through such a range of emotions. We have gone insane at times, we have gotten down deep in a well, and we have been on a mountain top too. We seem to have finally adjusted to the idea that we're attached to this person, root and branch until the last breath each of us takes.

5 months, Water Baby class

We love our boy. I couldn't imagine my life without him and I know that Barry couldn't either. Barry plays with him, cuddles him, kisses him and makes Sam giggle for hours. These two were meant for each other. I can already tell they have a special bond that will be theirs alone.

snoozing...Sam just a few months old

He is a wonderful father and a wonderful husband. We have had some adjusting to do in our relationship, but it seems that we have both taken each others shortcomings and understood them, adapted to them and made something even more strong. We are very lucky and will continue to work at this. At around 4 months, Sam left our room and the basinette and slept in his crib for the very first time. It was great to see him in there, all stretched out (by then, he was squishing himself into the basinette, seemingly comfortable though), but also great for us to have our room back to us. If for no other reason than we didn't have to whisper everything from when Sam went to bed until he woke up for the day around 6 a.m. 

I'm mostly babbling and just going from one part of the subject to another, but I guess stream of consciousness is the best way to get these kind of things out for now. We have some time to ourselves. I am currently sitting on the couch at 10:23 p.m on March 15th 2012 waiting for Sam to make his first sleeping bottle request, so I can try to go to bed with the knowledge of a baby with a full belly sleeping in the other room. I should at least get a solid two or three hours before he needs me again. I shift off and Barry goes on at 3. He has been wonderful about taking him from three till supposedly seven, but I often wake up later. He has really been an amazing man through this and I am so lucky to have him on this journey with me. 

I've been looking for this hat in adult sizes for months now. 

Well, I figured I'd write while the moment took me, and have done so. Sam is five months old now, five months and three weeks I believe. He is about to start turning over (almost there!) and he has begun to teethe (drooly baby!). He plays with some simple toys and likes to bat things around. We can't wait for every single coming milestone, coming step. Hopefully I'll write again in the near future, lord knows I'll have plenty of pictures to add.

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